artwork

one day, i forgot when the exact date is, my sister texted me and said "i give you 30 minutes to make an artwork to submit on my magazine" and i said okay. it took me 40 minutes exactly, but i manage to produced an artwork like this for nylon magazine and got compliment from their editor-in-chief :

and since then, i'm starting to playing around with adobe again. the last time i was designing would be when i graduated from highschool. my dreams to be a graphic designer was crushed when i didn't get accepted on FSRD ITB. i haven't opened my deviantart for 5 years, and my hobby has stopped right there. but after my nylon artwork there, i'm starting to explore photoshop again. so far i've been making these two :

vector for melissa shoes

edited self-portrait

and it got me thinking. am i doing the wrong thing right now? i know every college is hard, but i feel tortured living my day as a french literature major student. i heard my friends who's taking graphic design major got very exhausted for their neverending drawing homework, but at least they got tired doing things they're passionate about. me? sure i love reading literature and stuff, but i kinda feel that this is not what i desired. but it's too late to stop and change to different direction right now. what's my father gonna say? my family were so proud when i got accepted to this uni, and i don't wanna let them down. right now i wish it'll be over soon so i can move on and do things that i actually like.