Laa tahzan

It means "don't be sad" in Arabic words. Sad is the exact word to described my feelings right now. And I keep telling myself, "ikhlas cha, ikhlaas... You really love him, right? Then you should let him go". But saying it wasn't as easy as make it happen. Ikhlas is the word I learned since I was little. And everytime I got left by someone I love, my grandma to name of few, everybody keeps telling me the word "ikhlas" even my mom who cry louder than me. So, to be "ikhlas" for me shouldn't be that hard. But you see, many people tend to keep what they treasured as long as possible.
Me and him, we both had hurt each other by words many times before, and I'm sure it'll happened again in the future. And I'm tired of it, I don't wanna hurt him nor me anymore. This thing gotta stop. We both deserved to be happy. Or at least, let him be. That's what I really want for him :')