Mah

I'm like, very pissed right now with my mother. She's bringing up the conversation that have been ended few days ago, at the sahur table. And i was like, oh my god, will you let it go already?? She's accusing me for something i didn't do, and it's not that big deal anyway, and i thought that this conversation has ended few days ago! But noooo, she would never let it go wouldn't she?
Seriously, if i have my own money right now, i will definitely get the hell out of here. I love my dad soo much and my sister, but I'm seriously can't take her. If i see movies about mother daughter relationship where the daughter hate her mother, am like "i feel you sista!" *niggah style* well not actually hate, hate is a strong word. Let me put it this way, i love my mom, love her soo much. But i can't get to close to her, cos she's always giving me hard time. For example, I'm not excited to go back to Bangka for this lebaran, cos the last time i went there with my mother, we had this huge fight and she made me cry all night. So my memories of Bangka will always be about the fight. And it's pretty traumatic for me.
Me and her, we know we love each other. But seriously we can't stand being around each other, one of us were gonna flip out eventually, just by small things. She gets along pretty well with my sisters, but she can't drive them to the way she wanted because they're already grew up and living their own life. And since I'm the only kid left here who hasn't been independent yet, she drives me to the way (she wanted) that's making me crazy.
I just wanna finish my college immediately, then get a job, and then live on my own the way i wanted.