just because i have faith in you

it all started when we didn't even know each other. we came from two different world. i didn't knew that you were even exist, and so did you. you came when i'm in the lowest point of my life, when i just came back from a very hurtful past. soon i knew that you've been through the same thing. we both were afraid to even have feelings again. but on that moment i knew, you'll suit me perfectly.

we started everything from zero. we learned how to handle each other, we get to know each other's friends and family, and we built our dreams together. first time you confessed that you love me, i knew you spoke the truth, i can see it in your eyes. you're the best painkiller, you made me forgot about my pain. you don't know how to treat a lady, you're not the gentlest man in the world, but you know how to make me happy, and for me that's enough.

the best news in the world is when i found out that i got accepted in the same college with you. i'm not passionate about my major, but i'm happy beyond words, simply just because i can spend everyday with you.

almost 3 years we've been together, we had our ups and downs. many hurtful words came out of my mouth, but i didn't mean to hurt you. sometimes i felt like i've reached my boiling point, but i can't leave you. no reason, i just simply cant. i don't know how you can stand it, all of my exes said i'm crazy. but you keep sticking with me. you're more than just a boyfriend, you're also my bestfriend. you always be there everytime i'm falling apart, you always forgive me even after i'm having "one of those moods" and acted like a crazy person. i don't know how you manage to do that without being crazy yourself. i realized that you have flaws, but i can't see that. because to me you are perfect.

tonight is our last night, tomorrow you'll be gone far away from me. right now i'm in the line between normality and insanity. i can't bear the thought of being faraway from you. yesterday i was laughing and cheering you and kept telling you to be excited for your departure. but today i woke up, felt like shit, broke down and cried for several times. i know i shouldn't, i know this is just a temporary goodbye. i know you will come home soon, i know we'll be together again in no time. i've known that you're the one before i even met you, and now i know that you are worth waiting for. simply because i have faith in you.

(originally written in February 12)